I'd love to call this condition, lazy; but, the title definitely does not work. However, I find my mind has one thousand things to say, but my body does not want to respond.
Physical therapy is working. It has also revealed the definite weakness that has been caused by the multiple TIA's, and shows the need for goal setting, and for accepting my limitations. Yesterday was tough physically, yet also emotionally. When our minds want to do something, and our bodies do not respond in the natural way, I believe it is normal to become frustrated.
Take my hair for example; a daily chemo pill takes its toll on every aspect of my body. Seems a cycle of sorts. My hair was thinning and falling out and not growing, leaving me looking, in my opinion, a hot mess. Shaved it, and it wouldn't grow; but now it is growing, and falling out at the same time! Fingernails, same thing. It is a never ending cycle; so, I accept it. Why fight? Am I frustrated, yup! At the end of the day though, it does not mean a hill of beans.
After the second TIA, I was moving pretty slow and then was knocked down by an upper respiratory infection and horrid ear infection. I do believe I have not had pain like that in a while! Woke up on a Sunday and thought a thousand fires had been lit in my ear overnight! Still on the antibiotics, and without getting personal, THEY SUCK!
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